this is probably rlly specific but like… does anyone else ever get unbearably embarrassed about searching for content for something they’re really invested in and intentionally make things harder for yourself by trying to find it without actually searching or asking for it directly so that you don’t have to acknowledge to yourself that you want to see it or is it just me
if we want the rewards of seeing more content for the interests we love we must first submit to the mortifying ordeal of actively looking for it













