This scene might spoil a bit of the story, but here it is anyway…

i know it’s not kosher, but it’s mine.
you need to give yourself permission to be happy now. not when you lost weight, not when you found your soulmate, not when you have more money. we seek excitement from future events, but once those goals are met, the temporary pleasures will pass and they will be replaced by the next fantasy. devote your full attention to your inner self and appreciate being in the moment. happiness is never external, but a way of living and appreciating life. it’s not reality, just the way you perceive it. so go and shift your focus from the outcome to watching yourself grow.
Seasonal depression mode is getting extremely critical
Everything is wrong with me, no one wants me, cheerful Christianity is obligatory, trying hard to do the right things and having it met with feeling worse, and the nothing goes on forever
I hate December i want to end