Jadzia was quiet. She watched Ezri, observing her mannerisms and trying to detect which parts of her were foreign and which parts recognizable. The way she held her hands, or how she bit her lip, or the way she tilted her head and looked off to one side as she sat, thinking. She’s you, a voice in Jadzia’s head told her, She’s us. But… she also wasn’t. Like the way Odo had been Curzon, but also hadn’t been. Jadzia couldn’t predict what was going through the other woman’s head. And that troubled her.
In that lighting, when Ezri turned her head, her face vanished in the murky light of the dimmed overhead. She was silhouetted by the stars behind her. To Jadzia, the scene looked lovely and sad, like an unfinished painting.
Finally, Ezri spoke in a small voice. “I felt so lost when I first came here. When I first got Dax. It was strange… I had all these voices in my head and yet I’d never felt so alone. Everything was different. I’d look in the mirror and I wouldn’t recognize myself… Everything changed. And now it’s all changing again. And I’m feeling lost all over. Like I’m going to break apart, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to put myself together again.”
-Excerpts from “Palinopsia” (Chpt. 5)










