No, said Aziraphale, it's ineffable.

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that weird trauma dichotomy where you’ve always been considered more grown up and mature than your peers but now that you’re an adult you feel like you’re still a child emotionally

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So the way my therapist explained it to me is that, as children we had to grow up quickly in order to cope with what was happening in our lives. We developed coping methods that made us seem far more mature than our peers.

But as we grew up the coping methods we’ve developed have become less effective in a newer environment around different people. in a way, we skipped childhood and now that were “adults” a part of that lost childhood is catching up with us. All those carefully controlled emotions are catching up with us and spilling all over the place and we don’t know how to actually control them because the way we did it before doesn’t really work and probably never truly worked to begin with.

So really, we were never “mature” we were just dealing with shit, and now that there’s a chance to leave the shit behind us and start something new we have no goddamn clue how to handle it, because when so much of you is focused on dealing with the bad stuff happening you don’t really know how to act when it’s not there anymore.

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Eustache Le Suer, 1617-1655

Camma offers the poisoned wedding cup to Synorix in the temple of Diana, 1644, oil on canvas, 171,8x125,7 cm

Museum of Fine Arts, Boston Inv. 48.16

Camma was a Galatian princess and priestess of Artemis whom Plutarch writes about in both On the Bravery of Women and the Eroticus or Amatorius.

A statue of Diana, goddess of the hunt and protectress of women, presides over a classical temple where Camma, a priestess of Diana’s cult, takes revenge on the powerful ruler Synorix, who has murdered her husband. Pretending to accept his proposal of marriage, she offers him poisoned milk and honey, after first drinking some herself. According to the ancient Greek writer Plutarch, Camma “died cheerful and happy” as soon as she learned of Synorix’s death. Le Sueur, unlike most French history painters of his era, never went to Italy. He based his detailed archaeological and architectural references to the ancient world primarily on book illustrations.

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