Yes, this volume of Deep Space Nine watch-notes is devoted to a single episode, because ha ha ha, guys. Guys.
Well you knew what was coming. And I did not.
5x16 ‘Doctor Bashir, I Presume’
Oh boy am I looking forward to having Opinions about what I have been assured is a pivotal and DIVISIVE Bashir backstory episode! What could it be?? I’m holding all the potentially relevant things I know about his timeline in my head right now, here’s what I got:
1. loves his teddy bear so hard that he learns stuffing surgery at the age of five
2. shows great passion and skill for tennis in his youth, though does not pursue it. instead…
3. attends Starfleet Medical Academy, where he is feverishly driven to be the top of his class, writing in his journals about his deep fear of failure
4. in the final exam, mixes up an identification a first-year would know — later, a malevolent projection of his own mind will accuse him of self-sabotage
5. accepts an adventurous and far-flung medic position on the Federation station off Bajor
6. …choosing this path over a life of prestige and loveliness working at a hospital in Paris and marrying the talented ballerina he loved
7. arrives on Deep Space 9 as The Flirty Wunderkind impervious to doubt, self or otherwise
8. it is a total fucking ruse
8.a. is stricken with fear to learn that Dax nominated him for an illustrious medical award, assures them all he is far too young and will not get it, and crushed to pieces when he, in fact, does not
8.b. his old academic rival arrives on the station, sending him into an awkward dorky panic that lasts for days, and sees him getting desperately drunk with Miles and obsessively organizing, thankfully not in that order
and 9. once when Odo asked if there was anyone he could check in with for Julian on Earth, he paused barely too long before casually declining, and aaall my Significance Bells went off
So. If I were to arm-chair psychoanalyze this fictional character at this point: Julian Bashir hinges a huge amount of his self-worth on being medically/intellectually infallible. He is very very motivated to be the best & brightest, and for much of his life has been, which is why: smug. But because he has so deeply defined himself by his intelligence, he’s terrified of that final step of gaining Official Smartest Status, because what if he doesn’t get it. WHO IS HE THEN. Ergo, the likely last second self-sabotaging. Ergo, possibly going out to DS9 because the professional prestige to be achieved would be more qualitative and ~lived~ than something directly quantifiable like, say, winning awards or becoming the chief of surgery.
This is a bit of a cheat, because @rainbowrites mentioned that his parents are going to appear in this episode, but that fact combined with No. 9 has me pretty certain they’ll be revealed to have played a key role in Julian’s complexes. In all honesty, after the moment with Odo I idly considered an Aaron Burr-style “it was my parents’ dying wish before they passed” explanation for all his academic striving, but they sound alive so never mind about that. It could be as simple as them having relentlessly pushed their son toward greatness all through childhood, but that’s so common that it can’t possible be the Twist I’ve been assured is coming, much less controversial.
I have the sense that whatever is revealed (SRLSY WHAT IS IT), it’s going to make Julian ~different~ in the eyes of the audience and the other characters. But what I haven’t been able to suss out from people’s deliberately vague and spoiler-free comments (thank you, u all are great), is whether this is going to be a cause for sympathy, or for unease. Maybe both! Regardless, I’m positive it’s going to be weird. I get a stroonng sense of the weird.
Ok, OKAY, let’s do this —
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